I said things I didnt want
I put on smiles while I couldnt
I feel what I dont wish to
I become who I dont wanna be
God save me..
Can I lose it all?
I want a new mind
Its the time again
Where hibernation comes in
Im gonna disappear?
Do I want
Or not want?
Everytime I thought Im fine
But perhaps Im not
Its a cycle
Over and over again
Im so exhausted
Running in a circle
Theres no destination
Neither is there a start
I go round and round
Like a puppet swivelling
I may not tell
Im ever silent
'Cause its been looping
Its become so insignificant
Ive been falling out
Once and again
In and out,
In and out
It hurts big time
'Cause theres nothing left
Theres only a blank
Theres no emotions
Im nothing but a white sheet
You know what that means?
I have become a souless soul
I dont feel what I should feel
I no longer feel at loss
I dont feel anything when he's there
Blessing or disaster?
I really dont know
Ive really become the Angel I said
Like how a real guardian angel is
Theres no need for the sense
Of belonging nor love
Just a responsibility of care
And making sure he's happy
I dont want to be together anymore
'Cause Ive seen it clearly
Theres no future in the love left
Theres only wholly love
The type which I feel towards all
The new age love
Once again I feel
Ive become the unearthly me
The one whos not from this world
Who feels alienated
I hope its just a moment of crazy thoughts
'Cause Id give up materialism
Id become the witch me
The one whos into compassion to all
No longer attached to this world
I hope I wont go back to that
I want to be a human Angel to him
I dont wanna be a real guardian angel
'Cause that'd be scary
Please let me be human...
