Argh, its 4.12am and im still awake. Think i've been surfing too much ever since Mr. Lappie returned. And too many TVB dramas.. Too much of a couch potato ya.. Im wondering, what happened to "i-love-martell-martell-and-martell-alcohol-hook"? Humph~
Return of the Smiley Cells Saturday, April 28, 2007
Friends have commented I've been more cheery lately.. I guess its to do with my attitude towards life and my overall morale ba. Been more positive recently. Lessening myself on stress and my favourite sorrow.
It feels nice, perhaps cause I feel more "normal" lately. A normal gal who holds a normal job, having normal hobbies and activities, leading a normal life.. So, normality does belong. Just that i'd been looking at the wrong places.. Back to what I believe on psychology: Believe and you will, and you will get. The most important of the concoction of Happiness are these 3 words:'your-own-thoughts'. Therefore, simply put, YOU CREATE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS!~
I know a place that we can go to A place where no one knows you They won't know who we are I know a place that we can run to And do those things we want to They won't know who we are
Zoe: How do you know its fate? Cammy: If it's fate, you won't miss it Philip: That means if you meet your Mr. Right, you'll know its him right away. Cammy & Philip: It'll be like,"Yes, it's you..." Cammy: I've experienced it, many people have experienced it. If so, the feeling will never change. That's called fate
As some of you guys realised, my hair has grown pretty long.. I've been thinking of cutting it recently, or at least a trim.. Best if I can change my hairstyle. Went surfing and came across this hairdo I thought look quite nice.. (The girl's pretty cutsie too.. Keke..)
And to complete it, maybe a french manicure as well?
Now that I have my lappie up n working well again, I will be blogging more often I promise.. Moreover I've decided to spend more time with Meow Meow and myself at home, giving me more time in front of mister lappie. *cough coughz* (Still sick wor)
So anyway, these are afew of the pics taken on my bday celebrations: Celebration with colleagues @ Tiens office
St James on Bday eve eve
Celebration with family on Bday eve
Mummy cooked crabs as I wished - Chilli, pepper and panfried, all 3 types! Then there's other dishes I love: Butter Prawns, Fried Sotong balls and last but not least, of course there must be a chicken dish - Honey-grilled Chicken WIngs! Dhor Tzeh Mummy!
Baby I miss your cooking! Now that I look at these pics again.. Im getting so hungry!I have alwiz loved your Aglio Olio, since the very 1st time you cooked for me. The bacon-wrapped asparagus tasted terrific too! Thanks, muacks~
This is the 3rd cake I cut this year, keke.. I actualli had afew diff celebrations but not all pics are uploaded yet. My 1st was with colleagues in the office. 2nd, was with my group and other frens as seen in the pics above at St James. 3rd, with my beloved family at home; the most important people in my life. And 4th was on my bday day itself with Michi at Top of the M. Thank you everyone!~
I've been living with a shadow over head I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need them again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love I can't make through without a way back into love
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not somebody just to get me through the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping that you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do And if you'll help me to start again You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Ill.. So freaking ill... I've never been this sick for a long while.. Yes, perhaps my lao-mao-bings every now and then. But not high fever! I've been coughing like mad these few days Im realli wondering if im gonna cough out a pc of my lungs anytime soon..
But thru these few days of sub-standard health, when I prefer any other thing than the "bad habits", I realise I still do enjoy the "normal stuff" in life. Ok, let me list wat are the new "i love"s I feel I realli do enjoy:
Rivers. Singapore rivers at night. I have been taking walks recently with my nano plugged to my ears. Those who know me well should know I hav this hobby of walking, keke.. Its a way to relive stress, and sometimes sorrow. It just seems so peaceful gazing at them at night with my saddies on my nano. Great music + beautiful rivers = bliss
Nice restaurants with nice food and nice ambience. Be it my fav steak, oysters, beautiful cakes and pastries, handmade dumplings and xiaolongbaos, pretty jap menus or any other yummy goodies, I love the feasts for my senses. It was so and has never changed. Glutton@heart!
Movieeeees. I love movies. The only prob is im always too lazy so i miss them; there's nothing nice when i do step into a cinema; I can never remember what i watch.. But still, im trying to make it a point to increase the movie intake into my brain. Maybe try erm.. twice a month to start with?
Jap culture. Only after a lil chitchat with William recently that I realised how much I love anything japanese. Lol.. I remember how intrigued I was with the very-jap-jap-menu @ Nanjya Monjya where Bingbing's working. It was so jap, I couldnt realli read it. Miss that place.. Very cosy and very erm.. jap.. Haha.. Walked past Sun with Moon @ Central. Muz go there with Michi sometime soon.. Looks like a real cool place. And I also wanna go groceries shopping @ Liang Court. Kor Kor went with dasao the other day. Sounds cool n jap.. Shall elaborate more in the future.
Staying home with my reformatted lappie. Now I can spend hours on my lappie without a single vulgarity, haha.. (the truth is, i dun hurl any.. its an expression..) Feels nice being able to surf freely w/o lagging (touchwood!)
Getting very drowsy after medication.. So sentence structure getting v rigid. Guess i better go rest now.. Hope my Sunday goes my way.. Zzzz...
It's my beloved club Momo's farewell party tonite before they close for reno. And im not there!! Super ill, almost dying of excessive coughing at home.. I so wanna be there! *Cough coughz* But im glad though, as Im not forgotten, had many momo-goer-frens asking if i would b there. And darling Him came to visit his sickly baby with gifts. One for mummy and one for me. I love the white baby! (Muacks!)
Momo's the place where lotsa great memories were created. How I started going there when it first opened, with my sisters, havin hell lot of fun everytime we're there. It's also one of the clubs Michi dar n I celebrated our bday tog last yr.
Then came the time I knew him there.. Then my bros. And it's where got to get into contact with Ming again. I made lotsa new frens there and reunited with many old frens too..
Still remember how it was when I knew him, where we were sitting, stealing glances at each other.. How Jessie, Claris, Silla and I had fun with Ron and Ganesh everytime we were there when our group just formed.. Those are such significant and unforgettable memories. It all happened at Momo.. It was where all started...
But im not there at the end.. I realli wish I am.. Goodbye Momo.. Thank you... *Cough coughz*
I read an article from HerWorld mag recently. It's about how the author (let's name her theawakenone, lol..) got sick of being nice, all prim, proper and understanding. She was with her previous guy for 2 years. And after 2 years of being all nice and pampering, her guy dumped her to marry an Ah Lian who's all unreasonable and an outright bitch, so she describes. She came across a book on how things realli should be. I forgot the title tho.. Her method of snagging e man of her life thereafter ------ to be a bitch.
Sets me thinking.. What happened to all the r/s do's and dont's I once read from "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"? Then looking around me, I realised theawakenone, to my horror, is quite right! Her ex told her he felt she was a big sister to him. He even brought her to dinner to meet his new Wife! Omg.. Then I was like, that is so me! Haha..
Maybe its time to reassess certain things yea.. Like wat some frens say, "Maybe its time to relax and start letting others take care of you".
Hmm.. Tough one.. Maybe I've grown to become too strong on the outside Too much ego
The ice queen walks on
There's no warmth in her
Her touch is none but ice
Never knew smiles ever
Moves
But with feelings, no
A living mannequinn
She is
The Icequinn of Love
She was once flamed
Now just Plastic and Ice
She
The White Stranger..
One you'll never know
-The ICEquinn
(2005)
Her Lourves♥
Her SUNprincess
Her SUNgod
PianoBlack& PlasticWhite
oldGOLD
Music. Always music~
Josh Groban
Death Cab for Cutie
Lisa Ono
Raymond Lam
Boy Peacemaker
Classical / Bossa Nova
Lashies
Loads of eyeliner
Diamonds and Pearls
Lace, Satin, Velvet, Leather
FUR!
Martell + Sauvingon Blanc + Moet
Baileys + Bloody Mary
Lychee Martini + Moscato
Zoe: How do you know its fate?
The sickly me
My Medical Certificates.. 1st step for rests..
2nd step: Loads of plain water..
Step 3: Mummy says coconut helps.. Don't ask me why.. I hav no idea, lol..
Lastly.. My many many medication.. Omg...
My precious reformatted lappie
Thank you Meow Meow! You've been a great company. You're the best! Dote you lots lots, muacks~
Mags mags mags. Keeps me updated on the world of fashion and beauty. I miss dolling up~
