Tuesday, August 29, 2006
他做了他觉得对的选择
我只好祝福他真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人 不是我的爱人
他心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
他真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨他的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 他已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 他或她说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
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Monday, August 28, 2006
The crescent moonThe smiley faceIt's become a straight,Straight line!~ ^_^Where's my smile?Where're my words?Where's my emotionsAnd that shine??Sanshine's no shine!Bring back my crescent to me~
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
I deleted you off
Thinking it may seem easier
But I recalled how it should be
Wasnt I your Angel?
Then there's no need to leave
But why are we drifting apart?
I dont want you to come back
Im just doing what I promised
To be a guardian angel
To be happy when you are
To lend a listening ear when needed
And to give support in whatever you do
Im not asking for love, remember?
I dont want that, no...
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8/26/2006 11:39:00 AM
1 Buzz~♥
Are you still leaving in the shadow of what had happenend?Cheer up gal! Jeff.........
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Friday, August 25, 2006
I also wanna lie in the arms of one
To have a pat on my head when I'm in tears
To have the one who'll soothe my tantrums
A blanket on a cold night when I'm asleep
Sigh...
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8/25/2006 01:27:00 AM
1 Buzz~♥
U chosse not to be wat!Anyway I'm always here for you if u need me :) jeff........
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
My sis commented on my behaviour last night when we met up for a round of drinks.Sis: I feel we've distanced apart.. Is it because we havent met up?Me: No lar.. Our hearts are still together no matter what.Sis: Love love...Actually I have distanced.. Not from her, but from everything. I simply cant enjoy certain ways of life anymore. I'd always feel like being alone. Or being silent even if Im with friends. That is back to how I was about 2 years ago..
I still love my friends. I still love my sis.. But Im just slightly into my own world again. A world where there's no one other than myself. One which is off limits to anyone at all.. The gaze has come back.. Those close to me should know what Im referring to..Im BlackAsh again..Moreover I had a dark, dark dream the other night. One full of symbolism and mystery. How dark it is, I cant tell in words. One which left me to dwell in my world. Im Ice Cold Shann once more.. Feel me freezed and distanced. Its not as bad as it sounds. Im just strong again. One too strong, some say.. But no worries my frens.. I still love you guys =P Haha..
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I said things I didnt want
I put on smiles while I couldnt
I feel what I dont wish to
I become who I dont wanna be
God save me..
Can I lose it all?
I want a new mind
Its the time again
Where hibernation comes in
Im gonna disappear?
Do I want
Or not want?
Everytime I thought Im fine
But perhaps Im not
Its a cycle
Over and over again
Im so exhausted
Running in a circle
Theres no destination
Neither is there a start
I go round and round
Like a puppet swivelling
I may not tell
Im ever silent
'Cause its been looping
Its become so insignificant
Ive been falling out
Once and again
In and out,
In and out
It hurts big time
'Cause theres nothing left
Theres only a blank
Theres no emotions
Im nothing but a white sheet
You know what that means?
I have become a souless soul
I dont feel what I should feel
I no longer feel at loss
I dont feel anything when he's there
Blessing or disaster?
I really dont know
Ive really become the Angel I said
Like how a real guardian angel is
Theres no need for the sense
Of belonging nor love
Just a responsibility of care
And making sure he's happy
I dont want to be together anymore
'Cause Ive seen it clearly
Theres no future in the love left
Theres only wholly love
The type which I feel towards all
The new age love
Once again I feel
Ive become the unearthly me
The one whos not from this world
Who feels alienated
I hope its just a moment of crazy thoughts
'Cause Id give up materialism
Id become the witch me
The one whos into compassion to all
No longer attached to this world
I hope I wont go back to that
I want to be a human Angel to him
I dont wanna be a real guardian angel
'Cause that'd be scary
Please let me be human...
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
One of my fav parts in the series.. Tk note of the last part of it...
Qing Zi: Just a simple sorry and you think it can wipe away all your promises!? How can you be so selfish?!
Yuan Yi: You were the one who chose her, invading into her life. It's you who made her fall for you, and you promised to go thru every obsatcle with her. You said you'll never give up! Then why are you leaving her behind?!
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Monday, August 21, 2006
Behold..
Im gonna hav a new head of colour!Keke..
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This For You
Sunday, August 20, 2006
My ex-ladyboss sent me a very meaningful email.. A story of our angels..
This one's for you baby... You should know what I saw in this short story...
The Pink DressThere was this little girl sitting by herself in the park. Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad.
Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and watched the people go by. She never tried to speak. She never said a word. Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.
The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the little girl would still be there. Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and still with the same sad look in her eyes.
Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl. For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for young children to play alone. As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress. It was grotesquely shaped. I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no effort to speak to her.
Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make a step toward assisting someone who is different. As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my intent stare. As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more clearly. She was grotesquely shaped in a humped over form.
I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk. I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello."The little girl acted shocked, and stammered a "hi"; after a long stare into my eyes. I smiled and she shyly smiled back.
We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty. I asked the girl why she was so sad. The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because, I'm different."
I immediately said, "That you are!"; and smiled.
The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know."
"Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent."
She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said,"Really?"
"Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch over all peoplewalking by."
She nodded her head yes, and smiled. With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to spread, then she said "I am."
"I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye.
I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things. She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself. My job here is done".
I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel?"
She looked at me, smiled, and said, "You're the only one that could see me," and then she was gone.
And with that, my life was changed dramatically.
So, when you think you're all you have, remember, your angel is always watching over you.Like the story says, we all need someone...
I hope your Guardian Angel watches over you always.
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So remember... I still believe what I believed. I was sent to help you come to a certain realisation. Of who and what you should be appreciative of and what you yourself feel deep down inside...
And that you are not alone when u ever thought so.. Your angel will always be here when you need her... When you feel that the world has become silent.. When others don't understand.. She's here still...It doesnt matter how I turn out to feel.. That's not important. What matters is that you be happy.. Angels don't feel.. They can't be sad for themselves; they get sad for others~So be happy and happily in love, 'cause that'll be how I feel happiness... ...Thru yours~
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I'M BACK!~I'LL BE BLOGGING AGAIN!I CAN TELL HOW I FEEL AGAINDUN FEEL THAT SILENT NOW!!!HEHE...LIFE'S NOT THAT BLEAK I KNOWMOST IMPORTANTLY,THE ANGEL IS BACK!~
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