10/07/2006 11:47:00 AM
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Things have changed
I know it now
You don't listen
You just don't know
No one understands
How my world is like
So if you don't want in
Just go far out...

10/07/2006 10:31:00 AM
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9/25/2006 07:20:00 PM
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Better stop dreaming
Better wake up now
Can't you see it all?
Come back to the real world
The clouds are clearing up
So why still act shaded?
You can well see
You do more than others
Do not be blinded
Wake...

9/25/2006 07:05:00 PM
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I know it won't end
It will still go on...
It's a vicious cycle
I don't want hope
It's like climbing to the highest
It hurts more...
I won't be disillusioned
I know it hasn't ended

9/24/2006 11:12:00 PM
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9/24/2006 07:02:00 PM
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9/16/2006 02:25:00 AM
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9/12/2006 08:49:00 PM
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Now that you're not here,
I feel somewhat at peace
The feel of awaiting
It's somehow comforting
Knowing that you're not here
I know I can behave like i promised
It's back to how it was
The last time you went away
The memories come back
Bittersweet but consoling
Things are the same no more
But still Im waiting...
Waiting for return
Once again...

9/11/2006 11:13:00 PM
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9/07/2006 07:36:00 PM
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You're going away..
I didn't even take a pic with you
I forced strength to stay
And my mind not to wander

The last time flubberball followed
Now there's none
I hope you'll still think of me
Your lil Angel here waiting

=P

9/07/2006 07:30:00 PM
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9/01/2006 01:24:00 PM
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8/29/2006 01:58:00 AM
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8/28/2006 12:19:00 PM
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8/26/2006 11:39:00 AM
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Are you still leaving in the shadow of what had happenend?Cheer up gal! Jeff.........

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I also wanna lie in the arms of one
To have a pat on my head when I'm in tears
To have the one who'll soothe my tantrums
A blanket on a cold night when I'm asleep
Sigh...

8/25/2006 01:27:00 AM
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U chosse not to be wat!Anyway I'm always here for you if u need me :) jeff........

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8/24/2006 07:32:00 PM
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I said things I didnt want
I put on smiles while I couldnt
I feel what I dont wish to
I become who I dont wanna be

God save me..
Can I lose it all?
I want a new mind
Its the time again
Where hibernation comes in
Im gonna disappear?
Do I want
Or not want?

Everytime I thought Im fine
But perhaps Im not
Its a cycle
Over and over again
Im so exhausted
Running in a circle
Theres no destination
Neither is there a start
I go round and round
Like a puppet swivelling

I may not tell
Im ever silent
'Cause its been looping
Its become so insignificant
Ive been falling out
Once and again
In and out,
In and out

It hurts big time
'Cause theres nothing left
Theres only a blank
Theres no emotions
Im nothing but a white sheet
You know what that means?
I have become a souless soul
I dont feel what I should feel
I no longer feel at loss
I dont feel anything when he's there

Blessing or disaster?
I really dont know
Ive really become the Angel I said
Like how a real guardian angel is
Theres no need for the sense
Of belonging nor love
Just a responsibility of care
And making sure he's happy
I dont want to be together anymore
'Cause Ive seen it clearly

Theres no future in the love left
Theres only wholly love
The type which I feel towards all
The new age love
Once again I feel
Ive become the unearthly me
The one whos not from this world
Who feels alienated

I hope its just a moment of crazy thoughts
'Cause Id give up materialism
Id become the witch me
The one whos into compassion to all
No longer attached to this world
I hope I wont go back to that
I want to be a human Angel to him
I dont wanna be a real guardian angel
'Cause that'd be scary
Please let me be human...

8/24/2006 06:47:00 PM
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8/22/2006 04:13:00 PM
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8/21/2006 05:21:00 PM
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My ex-ladyboss sent me a very meaningful email.. A story of our angels..

This one's for you baby... You should know what I saw in this short story...

The Pink Dress

There was this little girl sitting by herself in the park. Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad.

Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and watched the people go by. She never tried to speak. She never said a word. Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.

The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the little girl would still be there. Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and still with the same sad look in her eyes.

Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl. For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for young children to play alone. As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress. It was grotesquely shaped. I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no effort to speak to her.

Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make a step toward assisting someone who is different. As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my intent stare. As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more clearly. She was grotesquely shaped in a humped over form.

I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk. I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello."The little girl acted shocked, and stammered a "hi"; after a long stare into my eyes. I smiled and she shyly smiled back.

We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty. I asked the girl why she was so sad. The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because, I'm different."

I immediately said, "That you are!"; and smiled.
The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know."
"Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent."

She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said,"Really?"
"Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch over all peoplewalking by."

She nodded her head yes, and smiled. With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to spread, then she said "I am."

"I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye.

I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things. She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself. My job here is done".

I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel?"
She looked at me, smiled, and said, "You're the only one that could see me," and then she was gone.

And with that, my life was changed dramatically.

So, when you think you're all you have, remember, your angel is always watching over you.

Like the story says, we all need someone...

I hope your Guardian Angel watches over you always.

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So remember... I still believe what I believed. I was sent to help you come to a certain realisation. Of who and what you should be appreciative of and what you yourself feel deep down inside...

And that you are not alone when u ever thought so.. Your angel will always be here when you need her...

When you feel that the world has become silent.. When others don't understand.. She's here still...

It doesnt matter how I turn out to feel.. That's not important. What matters is that you be happy.. Angels don't feel.. They can't be sad for themselves; they get sad for others~

So be happy and happily in love, 'cause that'll be how I feel happiness...

...Thru yours~

8/20/2006 11:21:00 PM
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7/25/2006 02:32:00 PM
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I should be gone
This doesnt work
'Cause it pulls
Its a baited hook
Pierced thru the drying heart
There's no more blood
Heartaches so strong
They can't be felt anymore
Help me God...
Let me die...

7/24/2006 05:36:00 PM
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7/12/2006 12:38:00 PM
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It can be sooo easy
Time, time
Free, free
No longer thinking
Mei mei
New new
Ahhaaha...
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7/11/2006 01:17:00 PM
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7/08/2006 05:49:00 PM
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Madness.. It was madness! Haven't clubbed this crazily for quite a while. So great to feel the carefree singleton fun again. Perhaps enough alcohol is the key to euphoria, keke..

Drank, sang, puffed, laughed.. What a night over at Sky with Adrian and frens! Next was a mingling session over at Momo. Took quite afew pics. Shall upload soon..

May jubilation repeat itself indefinitely! (' ' ,)

7/08/2006 12:28:00 PM
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7/07/2006 08:54:00 PM
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It's lost
The flutter begins
It's not there anymore
It becomes an empty place
The search came to a halt
'Cause to surprise
There's nothing there anymore
No one can be found
It's become vacated
It's where it all starts
Over again
There no one there now..~

Heehee...

6/27/2006 05:24:00 PM
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6/26/2006 12:23:00 PM
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After awhile you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises

And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, Not the grief of a child

And you learn to build all your roads on today,
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After awhile you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers

And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth,

And you learn and learn...
With every good bye you learn.

Veronica Shoffstall 1971

6/26/2006 12:18:00 PM
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'IT'

I viewed.. I saw..
The smile was different
I knew where you belong

There still? No?
Perhaps not afterall..
'Cause 'it' has a life of its own
'It' which comes from happiness
Peeping out every now and then
A burden I don't wanna bear
The name I don't wanna say
'Cause I'm tired
I wanna lie in slumber
I'm being battled by it
One I can't overcome
I may just be consumed
Then I'll be nice no more

So now I'm exhausted
No strength to fight
I need my sleep...
In preparation for the night ahead
I'm real tired...
Zzzzz....

6/24/2006 04:20:00 PM
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Had a great meet up with few gfs last nite.. Never knew coffee sessions can be that hilarious, haha... Thanks for letting me try the ice cham milo cham coffee Jasmine.. But I still prefer the 好甜噢! French Vanilla Earl Cooler =D

After last nite then I realised im really quite a hamster and I shall change that! No more ham 亚莲, lolz.. But seriously, I still don't think I can do diving as Vonne suggested. Plu-leeze don't enrol me!! i beg u.... So at the end of the nite, I found myself 3 teachers.. For wat, im not telling yet..

Well, really enjoyed myself with the gals.. Looking 4ward to meeting up again soon..

6/24/2006 12:20:00 PM
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I Think And I Shall

An epiphany...
A slap in the face
There's new direction
Manifestation in process!

6/24/2006 01:33:00 AM
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They don't know what love is
Does anyone know anymore
Tell them please
Take them to haven
Away from the Angel
Let lovers be in love
And not be not..

6/23/2006 08:51:00 PM
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Attainment of love
Always light at the end
Expansion of love
Self-less, non-specific

6/23/2006 05:43:00 PM
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Hmm...
Perhaps he's right
I've healed...!
*Twist*
Thanks you guys!
Glamours again? My treat..

6/22/2006 05:10:00 PM
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I thought
And I thought wrong
For I can't feel again
I really do can detach
I can live with it
Time really can be a saviour
So it's whew~
I can be on my own again
Who needs pain
When you have those around you
Life resumes to those times
With a slight difference though
But is this what it is?
Or perhaps a moment of strength?

6/21/2006 12:42:00 PM
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6/19/2006 06:03:00 PM
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You once said you love me
I was your baby..
Thanks for letting me in
Into the wonderful life of yours

Suddenly I woke
And remember what I said
To give you time to think
And the space you wanted
The reason why I left in the first place
I shall fulfill it to my best now
I'm sorry if I continued to confuse
'Cause I couldn't get you outta my life
Not even outta my thoughts
Lingering like a lost soul

I really must say goodbye
I'll force myself to be away
I thought you'll need me to be there
But boy I thought wrong
I'm not needed at all
My presence would only confuse
Pray to God I can sustain
May I have the strength to be away
I dont wanna be a burden anymore
I wanna be the one who brings laughters

I still love you
I'll be waiting still
I know how it'll pain me
But sincerely I hope
You'll find your answer...
Without me by your side

6/19/2006 11:01:00 AM
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I miss you
I know you don't..

When you arrived
U filled meaning to everything
So when you left
They left with you..
I don't know what to do
I can't do anything
Everything makes tears roll
Can't eat, can't think
Can't watch tv..
'Cause you used to be in the picture
Of every single thing I'd do
I thank but I hate too..

I'll be waiting
Not sure waiting for what
But i miss you
I really do...

6/18/2006 12:03:00 PM
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I'm ok thank you
I've got my answer
I can detach now
I can detach and live strong
Time is all I need
Getting used to my previous life
The life I had, again
Tears and pain
They fill me up
Leaving me cold and dead

Never again shall I allow
No one will move me
There shall be no one else
My heart is closed
Thank you very much
Im sorry but
I'll never be alive again
Say goodbye to Myself

6/17/2006 05:14:00 PM
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还够不够 这够不够
想你是我最熟悉的伤口
还要多久 还能多久
寂寞的量杯会是几杯啤酒

我还没有 我并没有
到底快乐在哪里有预购
对了没有 错了没有
爱到底算是理由 还是藉口

不能拥有 不能放手
告诉我 怎样把记忆没收
甚么以后 甚么时候
请你说出口

我甚么都没有
我都没有
没资格在心逗留
我甚么都不够
不够难受
才不能要求一点
同情的温柔

6/14/2006 06:56:00 PM
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6/14/2006 06:28:00 PM
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Goodbye
Good bye to you
You once were everything
You are still now
But I know I must
No matter how it kills me
To let you go

I' d rather it not be this way
But your heart I cannot keep
So i forced myself to fall
It's no right thing for me
And time will not tell
'Cause I already know what I lost
Someone so dear
Someone named My Precious Angel

I know you won't come back
But I'll always be here still
The one who loves you
The one who appreciates
Right from the start
And never did falter
When you need to fall back
Your Angel will still be at where you left her
Move on she can not
For there's no more path in front
She'll just be there
No matter how empty
No matter how broken
She'll just be there...

6/14/2006 05:54:00 PM
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6/13/2006 03:09:00 PM
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6/13/2006 12:51:00 PM
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6/13/2006 01:31:00 AM
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No good.. Just plain no good
None to love
None to be loved
??? ??? ???? ?? ???????

6/12/2006 04:24:00 PM
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Why is there peace yet again?
No waves of emotions
Nothing..
Nothing but silence...
He's gone away
Is this real strength?
Or another round of Life's games
Cut and roll, cut and roll
She doesn't know anything
Don't know anything anymore
Should she drop her title?
Angel of the Devil indeed...
Or perhaps she who mocks
Gets more of Him than others
Nothing..
Nothing at all anymore...
Only peace
But neither of good of bad
Just pure silence...
Mind of peace.

6/08/2006 08:56:00 PM
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Words no longer exist
Mind to a blank
Everything's nothing
Meaning not there
Remember those times
No cant..
White, blank, empty
Nothing...
No feel..
Freeze.. Ice.. Cold....
Stop the rain
Please...

6/08/2006 11:49:00 AM
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Thank you...

6/08/2006 11:47:00 AM
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Yes, I see it now..
I know how it should be
Shall the frozen be still so
No no.. You do not see..

Rain falls from the windows
They turn to ice upon
The pain from the blade
It killed the soul of the same
What shall come
Thou shalt not see
Pierce...
Blank, blank, blank...
Knowledge may not be power
It can be hurt, full of it
Do not see
Do not know
Do not...
Do..........
Not........

6/06/2006 03:32:00 PM
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5/31/2006 07:45:00 PM
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Those eyes..
That familiar face
The one which lights up yours
And melts you like fire to ice
The one you wanna love forever
Making you care every lil bit
And put in ever so much effort
You know you're trapped
In the web; in addiction
The world becomes more...

Thank you baby...
Thank you for being my Angel..
You gave a meaning to life
And wake me from my elusions
I escape, I still do
But now I know you'll catch me
And bring smiles to my face
The world seems brighter...

Sleep well my dear
I wish for you to have
The sweetest and loveliest dream
So your day after will be
Full of sunshine and light
Like the ones you bring to me
Sweet dreams baby..
As I bring kisses to your forehead
'Cause as your lips touch mine
I'll be there with you
A heaven for us only
The world fades away...

5/30/2006 02:00:00 AM
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It's an obsession
How it overwhelms everything
An infection too
How it seems to wrap you
Sometimes its bout finding
The right one who'd cure
You from your deadly confusions
But brings you deeper into
Another world of it
Wake and ponder...

5/27/2006 02:07:00 AM
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Love is
Most often than not
The most crucial piece
In our Life puzzle
It is a key of completion
It makes all whole
Whichever form it appears as
Lack of one, the circle's broken
It's like a heartless rule
Over mankind, us mankind
So find yours, treaure yours
'Cause it becomes empty
Devoid of meaning when it's gone
Bless you..

5/26/2006 09:02:00 PM
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Paranoia
Depression
States of negative bombardment
Psychotic disorders
Leaves mind delusional
Like a horrid virus
Takes away all right senses
Eats into Life...
Run..
Once again...

5/26/2006 08:38:00 PM
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"How you know?"
What a question indeed
"I just know.."
"How you know he loves you
How you know he really does
Maybe he's not true
Maybe he doesn't know himself
How'd you know
What is and what's not?
How'd you know
If he's there for you
His heart's present?
He's not like the others?
Whoever in the world
Tolerates a wrecked?
You think you've escaped?
Think again.. Haaha.."
...Well, I know
I just know..

5/26/2006 08:10:00 PM
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It haunts..
Like a nasty ghoul
That you just can see
Everything all too clearly
Then lies become truth
Assumptions become facts
It just happens how you think
Phobic fears live on
And consume you
Till you cant deduce the right
And be clouded ever
By your fears...
"Am I still in the game?
Or the one watching?
He's never really left
Hasn't He?" asks the Angel

5/26/2006 08:00:00 PM
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Thank God one found
The one Angel amongst
Life seems much easier
Pain less agonising
How much he means
How thankful one feels
Filled in by words
It can be not
Unlike just any other
He's God's gift of surprise
As if sent from heaven
To save the wreck of one
Perfection I am not
So bear with me
For the hurt and sorrow one's dwelled in
Took all positivity away
The outlook on life drowned
They took me away...

Now the angel's with me
My guardian angel..
Appearing as if by magick
No longer do i fear
For he is with me
I can survive now...

Have you lost me before?
Now I'm back
No longer hidden in distress
No longer in one's own world
The world of sorrow, of escapes
I'm pulled from the ruins
I'm me again...

5/22/2006 12:20:00 PM
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They do not know
Comprehend the lil heart
That hurt has been concealed
Not of non existence
It has been difficult
But they do not know
Please let it fly
Let the butterfly wither not
Not much is asked
Let happiness be a simple task
They understand not
The excruciating pain
Harrowing since the very start
Let it go.. Please...

5/22/2006 11:45:00 AM
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The Angel..
The other one beside
Fills the blanks
Creating meaning to all
No, you're not the dark one
You create light...

5/13/2006 11:25:00 AM
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The Angel has risen
From its little slumber
Eager to fight once more
Against the ever-devillish Devil
The help of another
So there are others!

The special one
The other Angel
He who understands
He doth know
Everything else disappears
Lost..
Lost in thy world..

5/11/2006 01:45:00 PM
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Psst..
The rush is over
Time to slow down
Time to rest
Relaxation?
Or more to come?
Breathe breathe
Don't stop your breath
'Cause you take others' away
Don't try to die
Like you always do
Live with strength

5/11/2006 01:40:00 PM
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Nobody sees me
'Cause
Im like lost.

No one reads me
'Cause
Im no book.

None understands.
'Cause
I ain't blank paper.

They don't appreciate
'Cause
I ain't no art.

Im none of above
Or maybe im not there?

Nobody can see;
Im invisible... ...

4/22/2006 08:39:00 PM
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Rejected,
Dejected.
Headache,
Confused.
My Heart;
Poor One.
Used.Yes?
4gotten!
So Empty.
Who M I??
Nobody...
No1 2 you
Everyone!

4/22/2006 08:23:00 PM
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It's quiet
When the city buzz goes on
When huge crowds come and go
There's only silence...
When friends gather and joy
Glasses toast and cheers
It is so distant...
The heart never belonged
It is a world not of own
Then what is?
A world where love resides
Selfishness unknown
Where the faeries prance and
Angels join to play
The trees speak freely
With bluebells' melodious songs
Yes...
It is the world which never,
Never quite exists..
A place of pure love and joy
Where war is a word unheard of
And peace is just a common
No love you's and me's
'Cause everything is
None of confusion
Nor any sorrow there is
It is a place of dream
And yes, only belongs to dreams...

Noisy...
Chatters...
Electronic hums...
Music...
"Welcome back" says the Devil..

4/22/2006 07:16:00 PM
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Doubts..??
How come one can be so prone to
..Signore confusion..
Or missy emptiness
Be gone lar
For the Angel is here
She deals with the Devil
So get lost
Tired.. Exhaustion..
Life is not real
Wake up from thy dream
Don't wear qn marks like chains
But without, it'll all be
............... and nothing more
So how?
How should life be?
Phases has passed then
Which one is you?
Are you really you?
Or someone you think
Perhaps perhaps perhaps
Doubts just appear
Bringing you away to the W.O.R.L.D.
World Of Realistically Lost Dimensions
Bloody..
Its a bloody world...

4/22/2006 04:43:00 PM
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Is it getting back?
Or confusion?
Paths ever-greyed
None of clear
The devilish presence
Unmistakenly lingering...
The Angel sees and knows
But watches and fall prey
Tiredness looms, glooms
It's faux haven, true hell..
Live..

4/21/2006 01:05:00 AM
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Am I the one?
Or maybe not the only
Nothing seems factual
What one thinks,
What it really is
Does anyone knows anymore...

4/17/2006 01:33:00 PM
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Dream or reality?
Not easily identifiable..
When one has given up
It ain't easy to accept
It replays like a tape
Over, over and again
The same has been
So when will it be diff?
Hurt has become like tears
Existence of none to the Angel
Acceptance comes with pain
Shall freeze reside?
The Devil has caught up again
Run Angel, run...

4/13/2006 02:28:00 AM
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The sky of silence always
Belongs to this small mind
The world of untrue peace
Of inner chaos infactly
Answers answers...
They come by hard

Out goes the flame
Blown off with a single breath
Faeries of air
Carry those woes
Away they shall be
So the silence in the skies
Always stays put
And chaos can disappear

The search for answers
Brings more questions
The ever circling journey
Needs strength to be sustained
The little mind of silence
Hold on, hang on...
You will survive...

3/12/2006 04:19:00 PM
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Love...
That last till the end of time
Till death do apart
Does it exist?
In this material world
Does anyone know what is love anymore
Not love through greed
But true love which brings oneness
We are all born as halves
The search for the other
It's ever so unachieveable
The greatest challenge of all
For one to truly understand
You have to look deep
The paradise of love
Exists nowhere but... Within...

3/12/2006 03:51:00 PM
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It hurts, it's painful
But I don't blame you
'Cause I view to differ
You gave me a new life
You shall see, We all shall
I've grown and emerged
New. Once and again...
It's not a disease, it's strength...

2/22/2006 03:32:00 PM
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Silence...
Peace once again
World without love and hate
Achievable within.
Heartlessness survives?
I'm quite fine..
Very fine indeed...

Shann

2/17/2006 02:10:00 PM
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<<我应该>>

你眼盖脱了色彩
颈巾即将松脱下来
我再探听谁像亲你在怀内
可是你 心不会装载
而我知身受其害
仍然在说都不必分开

应该早已没期待
应该心死为何仍未放开
应该不要回来任你伤害
恋什么爱 你精彩 我悲哀

盼你性格会更改
始终苦等一个未来
你讽刺我人活于五十年代
不用再 得一个深爱
常痛哭躲在门外
谁人共你正在内
传来声声喝采

恋什么爱 你高山 我深海

10/25/2005 05:01:00 PM
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Sorrows...
Sorrow brings mind to nothing
Nothing at all
Everything shuts
All to a blank
Emotions to zero
That heartwrenching feel
Pierces the heart
A white sheet of paper
No stories to tell at all...

10/09/2005 06:41:00 PM
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Loving someone can hurt so much,
You'd even think it's your fault of loving too deeply
Love is ever unexplainable,
There's no reason of why you'd love that someone
Even if he never feels the same,
You'd feel glad just looking from afar;
Just hearing that voice
Or returning to those sweet scenes
It doesn't matter if that someone
Never notices your care nor pain
As long as he's in your heart
Nothing else matters
And onward you shall go, forward
Waiting for the day he understands

Strong words, strong love, strong passion.. This song describes everythings..

PLEASE FORGIVE ME
by Bryan Adams

Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss, it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this...
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met, same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger, wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...

So if you're feelin' lonely, don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
Please forgive me if I need ya like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true...
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you

Still feels like our best times are together...
Feels like the first touch, still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough...
Still holdin' on, you're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you, yeah
I remember the nights ya know I still do...

So if you're feelin' lonely, don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
Please forgive me if I need ya like I do
Oh believe me every word I say is true...
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you

One thing I'm sure of is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
Please forgive me, I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
Please forgive me if I need ya like I do
Baby believe me every word I say is true...
Please forgive me, if I can't stop lovin' ya
Never leave me, I don't know what I'd do...
Please forgive me... I can't stop lovin' you...
Can't stop, lovin' you...

9/19/2005 07:56:00 PM
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Been listening to Bryan Adams' songs recently.. Feel alot towards his lyrics. If you do take note, it's very meaningful. This one especially.. Guys out there, have you ever wondered if you have loved your gal truly?? And if you do, have you ever let her noe??

HAVE YOU EVER REALLY LOVED A WOMAN
by Bryan Adams

To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
And give her wings - when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you -
Till ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
And when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman?

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - You gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...

9/19/2005 07:37:00 PM
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Sometimes...
The Angel does fall too
When you thought happiness
Derives from others' smiles
When you think you can
Be happy when you hear laughters
You think wrong..
The Angel is just another victim
Destiny befalls everyone
No matter how you sprint

Sometimes...
When you think you can be strong
Taking care of everyone around
Trying to make the world a better place
Concerns to people,
Discerning of everything..
You think wrong..
It's not easy this way
The world becomes lonelier and lonelier
Being positive means solitude
Solitude needs determination

Sometimes...
Determination may fail
Tears do not fall, but
It's worse than crying
A disaster it is when tears
Become such non-existent
You think wrong...
The Devil will get all means
It will never allow an Angel
One which can escape destiny

So sometimes...
Admittance should come
The Angel of the Devil
Is just part of the evil game
Let go...
Let go...

9/19/2005 07:17:00 PM
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Sleepless nights lead one's mind
Returning to those times
Which one have been escaping
Memories always bring hurt...
Those little details
Those that were so much treasured
If only time had stopped then
If only I know what you think...
Confusion sinks in so heartlessly
Everything's to a standstill
I'm lost, find me back
I don't know who I am anymore...

9/09/2005 04:46:00 AM
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Recently I've noticed lotsa troubles in everyone's heart... This is a period of unhappiness fer many.. A piece of advice to u, my dear frens & a reminder to myself i guess:

Sometimes Life would lead you to a path
Which is rocky & crooked.
But, do know this..
You are already there.
What you have to do is to walk.
As long as you yourself
Have enuf determination,
Have faith in yourself.

Together with a strong heart
And a mind of patience,
You will get to your destination
Even a journey less weary..
Clench your teeth
Or maybe your fist even,
And don't bow down to destiny;
Don't ever give up.
You will then glide thru
And learn to be stronger.
Trust me...
It can be done
Just believe in yourself
Believe that you can do it
Tell yourself that you are happy
Then you will be...

And when you're down,
Remember those around you,
Your loved ones
Or friends, no matter
They will always be there
If you know they are true
Don't take it out on them,
As they're not the ones;
They do not bring you troubles
You bring your own...
So treasure them as
They have not left you...

Thus you know you have those
And use that too,
As a courage to walk or run
That difficult path in front
Then Life becomes much more
Of an easier game...

Remember dear friends
And perhaps myself too,
Life is juz a formalised game
If you know how to endure,
How to control your thoughts
You can command situations.
Everything will seem easy
Just remember to be happy...

Shann

9/06/2005 04:55:00 AM
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Waiting..
The hated feeling of unknowningness
Or perhaps its an excitement?
Wait wait wait...

9/04/2005 11:00:00 PM
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A walk thru the park
A long bus ride home
I wanna be alone...

The night caresses
Breezes into the hair
Child of darkness
Where exactly is your home?
Why is the World never close
Your mind never to a stop?
Where does your heart belong
You cannot tell...
What is the meaning
Behind your knowledges gained
Do you know where you're heading?

Please...
Keep your mind still
Your heart enclosed
There's no place for pierces
Why can life be simple
But to you it's uncomprehensive
No one understands
Neither does yourself
None will save you
Those times you drown

Yes, you're the Angel...
But Life's too much a Devil
For your lil' heart to bear
Let go will you...
There's no truths to grasp
There are no Gods to prove
They are there
They will just be.. there...
Nothing will change
So why hold on?
Just close your mind
Close those windows
Be human. Feel again
The ethereal World will pull you down

Don't you see Life's making
A bloody big fool... ...

8/07/2005 11:49:00 PM
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《Journey》~ Corrinne May

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don''t know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey...
Till I find my way home to you to you...

8/07/2005 11:40:00 PM
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《我很好》~ 梁咏琪

在我心裡你像一座城堡
你把我保護得很好
你走的那天除了多一個擁抱
沒有任何徵兆
你說愛一個人沒有解藥
只能靜靜陪我到老
我無法將你說話的樣子忘掉
愛你讓我好驕傲
我以為我會很好
看見每個人都微笑
我的心在哭
誰知道
沒有你我好不了
告訴你我真的很好
愛像打翻的顏料
悲傷的顏色
在臉上
只有你才看得到

8/05/2005 02:26:00 AM
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A dilemma..

I've been offered a post as a Biz Development Exec in one of my ex-coy... Dunno whether its a sign from the Gods, lol... Just when I was gonna collapse from sheer exhaustion in my current law job, Im given another choice.

But... I've managed to climb up to the post of officer in just one month in the law firm, managing my own team, and being acknowledged, actually its quite ok leh.. Somemore its a professional firm.. Hmm.. But now Im being offered to do branding, seems even better.. So, Credit Officer in a law firm OR Business Development Executive?

Other than heartache, now I've got headache... Sigh...
But I think I've already made my choice.. Hee..

8/02/2005 12:51:00 AM
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Was reading thru my old entries and was happy to realise my favs remain the same. This is one of them which i can relate to:-

Why does it hurt again?
Wasn't pain gone for good?
Eating up life once more
Freedom was assumed
The longing for a soul
One which gives understanding
Is this an infection?
Or too much to ask for?
Time and again it comes
It never goes away


Shann

8/01/2005 11:43:00 AM
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Shann Ng
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Age 3*




The ice queen walks on
There's no warmth in her
Her touch is none but ice
Never knew smiles ever

Moves
But with feelings, no
A living mannequinn
She is

The Icequinn of Love
She was once flamed
Now just Plastic and Ice

She
The White Stranger..
One you'll never know

-The ICEquinn
(2005)


Her SUNprincess
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PianoBlack& PlasticWhite
oldGOLD
Music. Always music~
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